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Nice weeks are nice.

I've taken 3 bubble baths this week. It's been awesome. ^_^ I needed it; I've kind of been pushing myself too much with socializing lately. So I kind of pulled back this week. Consequently, not much is new with me, lol.

I just sent my sister off to a writing conference in New York. I hope all goes well. In the meantime, I have the house to myself. *blares music* Dad wants to meet me for bowling tonight, but until then, I am free to RP. So let me know if anyone wants threadage. :D?

Y'all are still awesome, btw. :3 Just sayin'.

Reeeaaalllly long time no see!

Helloooooo my loves!!! :D

It’s been what, probably five or six months since I’ve done anything vaguely related to LJ? I am soooo sorry for my long absence, but there were just a ton of things about myself I really needed to work out. I’m still working on it, of course, but now at least I feel like I’m getting somewhere. And I’m going in the right direction.

I’ve been getting a lot of support and connecting with people at my church, specifically the young adult group, which was one of my biggest goals after I got back from Japan. It’s been great. I went in hoping mostly just to make friends, but it’s ended up helping me so much more than that. I feel like I’m really starting to get to the point where I’m not just half-assing my relationship with God anymore. Anyway, that’s all I’m going to say about it because I don’t want to be annoying… But I do want to add that if anyone ever has any questions about Christianity or the Bible I’d love to try to answer them.

So I’ve been keeping myself pretty busy, and plan on continuing to do so. I haven’t been looking for a job yet. My mom’s starting up a non-profit costume rental business for local theaters, and I’ve been helping her with that. Basically we’re consolidating a few different costumers’ collections into one huge computer database for easier rental. So… a lot of data entry. Also, I told her that I’d like to learn how to sew, so she’s started taking me to classes. Other than that, I’ve been doing a lot of reading, and now I’m trying to self-teach myself guitar. And I’ve been trying to go to the gym more, and Mom and I are thinking of starting a diet.

My sister’s still tweaking her book. She’s going to a writer’s conference in a couple of weeks, and her plan is to send out query letters in February (apparently that’s a good time to send them, when agents aren’t too busy). So I’m anxious to see how that goes.

I’d like to get back into RPing, but it’s starting to look like I might only be able to do so once or twice a week. If nothing else, I’d like to drop into crackchat once in a while. I miss you guys! How has everyone been doing??? Please, babble about yourself for a little while in the comments if you have the time. I’m really anxious to hear what everyone’s been up to. :3

What have I missed?


*Has Issues*

I didn't realize I was going to be an emotional basket case after I came home.

I've been through this before-- a mild depression that tends to set in whenever I suddenly have lots of time on my hands (for example, after school ends, or after I've been in a show and I no longer have rehearsals to go to). I start feeling bored and restless and guilty for all the time I spend relaxing/doing nothing. I get irrationally mad at my sister because I choose to stay up late with her. I roll my eyes in frustration behind my Dad's back because he wants to have dinner and watch family-favorite TV shows with us when he gets home-- only because I've been watching TV all day and I'm sick of it. My Mom asks me what's wrong and is there anything I want to do with her, and I give her vague, unhelpful answers before launching into another round of complaints about how bored and lonely I am. And then do nothing about it.

I love going out and doing things, but there are too many things that feel weird to do by myself. (Also, I guess it didn't help that my car wasn't working completely until yesterday, but that's kind of another story.) I love hanging out with people, but the relationships I have with most of my (Facebook-)friends are such that they would be surprised and confused if I suddenly called them and asked if they wanted to hang out (i.e. I haven't seen most of them in years). Basically I've usually relied on my sister for hanging out. But right now, I want her to be able to focus on working.

I'd like to make some new friends, but I absolutely hate the process of getting to know people-- I'm horribly shy, as I've complained about at length before. I'm incredibly awkward and terrible at making conversation when I'm out with people, to the point where it makes them noticeably uncomfortable. Even before that, though, I have trouble figuring out at what point it stops being weird to invite people to hang out with me, and I have difficulty getting invited to things unless people have a particular reason to hang out with me specifically. Theater usually works well, because you get to know your castmates during rehearsals and you often go to meals in big groups, but I have a few family vacations coming up and I'd have difficulty committing to a show until the holiday season or after. So I can't decide what to do until then.

I've thought about posting a general Facebook status that says something to the effect of, "I'm lonely-- who wants to hang out?" But besides sounding embarrassingly whiny, it still leaves the problem of people not responding because they automatically assume they don't know me well enough, so they're not one of the people I'd want to reply.

I know, I know, I probably just sound like I'm making a ton of excuses, and I'm a lazy, moody Pisces and all of that. If you have advice, feel free to share, but bear in mind that I'm probably not in the mood to hear it. If I sound annoyed at anyone I apologize in advance. My family (who know my situation best with all of its complexities) don't even give me advice anymore because they know they can't really help.

Anyway, I want to start RPing again-- I really do miss it. But I think I'll hold off until I figure out what's going on with me. Mom and I are going to get memberships to an exercise club this week, so having that to do will probably help, and then maybe I'll get a better handle on developing a normal, daily schedule.

You guys are awesome and I miss you. ♥ Hope to be back soon.

Hisashiburi desu ne!!!

That's Japanese for "Long time, no see." XD And it is an understatement.

Long story short, I've been back home for exactly 3 weeks. Things predictably got crazy the last couple of months I was in Japan, packing up and spending every weekend going to goodbye parties and trying to squeeze in last-minute sightseeing (and karaoke!). So I sort of dropped RPing suddenly and stopped checking my secondary email. ^^; As a result, I missed some things—some automatic payment failures on my journals due to an expired credit card, some very sweet and somewhat concerned emails due to me being entirely absent on LJ and AIM, and most importantly what everyone has been up to!

So what's up, everybody? :D

As for me, I'm simultaneously not up to much and up to quite a lot. (Figure that one out. XD;) On the one hand, I have been relaxing… Beating my mother at Dr. Mario, taking moonlit swims because it's too hot during the day, chatting with my sister all night until the sun starts to rise. On the other hand, she and I decided pretty quickly that we needed to switch our rooms around, and we've gone all out. After a few trips to IKEA, I've got all new furniture in here, aaaaaand our beds are finally in separate rooms. We used to sleep in the same room so we could chat all night, and left the other room for desks and books and things. But I got so used to living by myself that we decided I should at least have my own space. And I like it now; it's pretty. ♥ I'll have to take some pictures.

Things are winding down on that now, though, and I'm still taking the rest of the year off. I've got a decent amount of money saved up from teaching, and since I'm living at home I don't really need any income. I would like to pursue a bit of singing and acting while I have time like this, but at the moment I'm not really thinking about that. First I'd like to jump back into RPing!! I'm free as a bird, and what better way to spend it than playing and chatting with you guys?? :D You all kept me SANE through what was, for me, both a very difficult and rewarding experience. I can never thank you guys enough. ♥

I'm sure I'll do a long and more reflective post about my time in Japan (maybe several), but for now I just wanted to update and let everybody know what was up. You all are awesome! I'm anxious to catch up with everyone. ^_^

It's so good to be home~ ♥



Just had to stop in and say, thank you SO MUCH for this wonderful lovely thread in the love meme!!! What a pleasant surprise. I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to participate... you all deserve 10x that much love from me because you are all AWESOME. XD

*runs off to class*


Things I Love Thursday [6/23/11]

Whoopsie! Skipped for two weeks. Where has the time gone?

Sorry I haven't been around at all, guys. Still trying to stay calm and things. (Sometimes failing—*cough cough* last night.)

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Meme-ness (part II)

Wow, this didn't take me as long as I thought it would. Tagged by in_the_blue.

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Meme-ness (part I)

I still haven't answered that long meme in which I was tagged by [Unknown LJ tag]. But I seem to have time today and just enough brain for that, so while I'm working on it I shall post this other one as well:

Name a character I've written before (this counts for all RP & fic characters; past, present or even AU) and I will tell you...

01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Last sexual experience
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks in bed
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
20. Biggest insecurity

Pup list in my profile! Have at, my loverlies. :3


A Drama.

Me, these past two months or so: I'm going home in ___ days. Thank God. -_-

Me, this weekend: OMIGOSH I ONLY HAVE FORTY-SOMETHING DAYS LEFT!!! D: *stress* I HAVE SO MUCH FREAKIN' STUFF TO DO!!! How is it all going to get done???? And why hasn't my new supervisor contacted me AT ALL yet this is his job and I haven't even MET the guy WTH WTH WTH DDDDDX What if he bought my plane ticket already and it's not the date I want and AGGGGHHHH *calls sister on Skype* Sister: *anxious to see me* *doesn't understand why I'm upset* Me: *snaps and whines and just generally makes her feel bad* *can't sleep*

[brief interlude in which I ask my English teacher for my supervisor's contact info, he calls the guy who says, yeah, he has other stuff to talk to me about too and we'll meet next week]

Me, yesterday and today: *calmer* *hits me every once in a while* "Omigosh I'm going to be home soon! :D"

Stay tuned for more updates.


More Astrological Ramblings

Cut because this got looooong.

Musings, and a couple of questions.Collapse )

Kisses and hugs! ♥ Hopefully I'll get some TILT done today, but we'll see. :3

(Oh, btw, I'm not in a bad mood or anything. Just pondering things. I've actually had a very good week so far. ^_^)